Things I cannot live without: rethought

Workout

A low cal diet

Spending 30 minutes in a heated up sauna room twice weekly, feeling myself losing weight

Losing weight

Mobile phone with a std rate of Re 1/- or lesser

Talking to my boyfriend, even if it means only 58 secs in a day

A book

Checking kolkata-bangalore one way flight prices on yatra

Calculating how much I can earn in how many days to be able to go to Bangalore

Water and definitely

Oxygen

Sticking by my philosophy. Hopefully

I want to live in with my boyfriend and my parents are dead against it. It might look normal to some, practical to some and obvious to the most of you reading this. For me though, it's a complete breach of freedom. My parents like him and are happy with us, but "get married before you even think of meeting him again" is the attitude. I wont blame them actually- when they got married, it was the first time they ever met.

I have a simple philosophy in life which I believe I am going to live with till I breathe my last. I have one life to live it and when I die, I dont want to cry that I did not do what I wanted to. My parents went to Tirupati recently and dad can barely walk after being afflicted by arthiritis. Even they were cribbing- "we should have gone when health had permitted us."

Coming back to the topic, I always thought when I would want to leave, I will. But now, I know the constraint and its traumatising to put it lightly- money. Thankfully I was good at my job before I went to Bangalore and I am getting back into it to get the money to go to Bangalore, where my home is. Ma would ask, "Isn't this your home? Everything we have is yours." Well, I would answer, "Then you dont have freedom for me to have."

Wish me luck in my triumph. It feels like I will elope and to say the least, I am damn excited. I had dreamt of running away and getting married, but I guess I would be living in!!! Whichever way, till I know what I am doing and am ready to face the wrath of any possible wrong decisions I take, I want to fly free like a bird...