Dreams, life and random thoughts

Life isn't easy it seems. I don't want it to be either. I have only dream in my life and unless I achieve it, my mind won't be at peace. Filled with guilt, desperation and regret, I feel bound to this disgusting life in this disgusting world. I crave freedom, a freedom that will truly make me free from all bonds. I have come half way, need to walk the rest.

Life is difficult alone they say, but I don't trust anyone other than myself anyways. I love yes, I hate yes, but I can't completely trust anyone. People lie and call them white lies so that their conscience gets justified. I would rather say sorry if I make a mistake, learn and move on.

No one is bad, no one can be bad. It's all about perception and percieve this world to be fair and just. Situations make people bad and everyone deserves a second chance- even life!

"Different"

In a crowd, I feel lonely these days. Dont get depressed. I like feeling lonely- alone with myself, my best friend. Anyways, it feels weird how people have comments for everything. Simple things: "how can you think that way?", "how can you eat that?", "why do you have to be unconventional?", "society?"

What about live and let live? Oh well, there I go thinking about my utopic world! I wonder, I dont even get tired, do I? We had a "Graduation Party" at office today. The idea was to "Eat Together". Such a modest thought! Oh well, we did- divided amongst two tables. Vegetarian and non-vegetarian. Nice "togetherness". I understand how disgusting it might feel to see someone eat something you hate- but for religion, rituals and personal believes? If you want your belief to be respected, you need to respect other's believes too. Trust that there are "different people", "different believes". You might be the "different" for someone else...

Cheers!